it is so quiet in my heart

it is so quiet in my heart that 
i thought your silence would move through me without taking flesh.

it is so dark in the once sweet night 
without you 
that bleak stars hide the ancient moon

we sat once on a  butte 

you and i

looking west 

searching the hills for smoke

from the glow of campfires 

where hippies made love in tents

and the smell of their cleaned curls

sapped the pungent canvass sweet

i lived other lives fully that night,

my Kali years coming and going 
as tiny souls bringing crumbs
to lay before Siddhattha's hands

(breath pause breath)  

you taught me to live outside time

because you do

and as i dropped to the water 

your skilled hands held
one patch of my skin

so tightly and sweetly 

that briefly
my body was strong against the river

but your heart is still stretched raw,
your sorrow still struck by secret chanting,
and nothing i sing or bring to our tent
is fire enough for simple calm 

i want you in moments

but even your silence is too much song.

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